Katie Price’s on-off boyfriend Kris Boyson has bravely opened up on his decade-long battle with depression and anxiety, revealing that he was scared to leave the house at his lowest points.
The 30 year old personal trainer spoke out following the tragic death of Love Island star Mike Thalassitis, saying his passing should be a “wake up call” to discuss mental health.
Kris revealed that he ran into the middle of a road and into a car as he hit “rock bottom” as he credited his parents for helping him throughout the difficult time.
He exclusively told new! magazine: “I was 21 and it came out of nowhere. My mum and dad were having relationship problems, my granddad passed away and things were getting to me in my office job. I’ve always been a worrier but one day I had a strange episode when I was panicking and everything was going dark around me. I knew something wasn’t right.”
Kris added: “Over the next few weeks I started getting really bad anxiety. In the supermarket I’d freak out about where the exit was, to make sure I could get out. I had a feeling of ominous doom – like something bad would happen to me. And I couldn’t pinpoint why but it spiralled out of control.
“I stopped going to the gym, boxing and playing football, which were my passions, because I was too scared to leave the house. I quit my job. I didn’t want to wake up.”
Things took a turn for the worse when Kris went out for dinner with friends and had what he described as an “out of body experience”.
“I was in a nightmare,” he explained.
“The only thing I could to to get out of the nightmare – and I’ve only ever told my parents and a couple of close friends this – was run into he road and into an oncoming car. That was rock bottom. I thought it would end the pain.”
[Kris Boyson/ Twitter]
He added: “Thankfully, my cousin intervened to stop me. I wasn’t thinking about suicide, I just didn’t want to feel how I felt any more. I wanted the pain to stop.”
Thanking his parents as they sent him to focus on fitness at the European Institute of Fitness, a retreat for weight loss, Kris said: “Being there made me realise I was able to function and succeed. I wasn’t worthless.”
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